NCC-21166 (she/her)

Negative; I am the willow tree you sit beneath for shade and comfort. I have always been here, and I will always be here. This is an enchanted forest, after all. What is a forest without it’s trees?

Now why did you have to go and post this? I guess I need to figure out what “submissive” and “rope bunny” mean now.

Marathon runner and century cyclist here. You have no idea what tights do for the bulked legs. I go from quadzilla to thick thighs saving lives and it’s glorious.

I wear them partly because they help me express the (locally, socially constructed) femininity that I feel. I also wear them partly because I have serious trouble tucking, and a flowy skirt is less of a problem than tights. Which is a shame, because my legs look fine in tights.

Oh, I’ve been in the closet for 11 years. I’ve had a LONG time to do my research. The problem is that the clinic I’m seeing is being overly cautious, and I don’t want to end-run them to DIY because I need them for lots of other things, some related and some not. They put me on 50mg spironolactone, which I guess did the job. Almost. T is at 70ng/dl. Since I’m in the US, cypro isn’t an option and the clinic is paranoid and told me they won’t prescribe anything with a side effect of “death” listed, even though you and I both know that’s infinitesimally small a chance and bigger for cis-women than us. So that means no bicalutamide.

I’m also unfortunately on 4mg oral estradiol tablets. They don’t want to make ANY changes until the 3 month mark, so my E2 is sitting at 70pg/ml. The clinic seems happy with this. I’m beside myself at how low it is. I have asked to move to intramuscular estradiol valerate at monotherapy dosages, but they keep pushing back. My age likely doesn’t help, though. I’m over the hill. And fairly lean, since I run marathons and cycle centuries. So there isn’t a lot of fat to redistribute, but I should still feel the pain and sensitivity. It’s frustrating.

I’m 7 weeks in to HRT and have no changes yet. How? How do you already have this feeling? I’m glad you’re euphoric. I’m just jealous.

I go for my first HRT consult tomorrow. This hit me right in the feels. Hopefully those start working again after I get new meds