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Thanks for this advice, it made it easier to understand what I can do ❤️🌹

Thanks, I’ll try looking for something like that

Maybe I am suppressing it, who knows. I’ll talk to him about it first. Would be good to know what “seeking out groups” means, a lot of people tell me that but I literally don’t understand, I’m a bit slow with abstract language. With all the hobbies I have, one could think I’d already be in one by the time I finished college, but alas

If that happened I would end my life on the spot. But I’m sure I can become attracted to him. I can learn to be anything.

I’m trying to help myself with this, because several therapists I’ve tried were just social workers that didn’t help much. Only good one I was recommended lives three cities away and costs an arm and a leg. But I keep slipping up constantly, as exercising and positive affirmations dont seem to work anymore, even running. It still feels good, but suicidal thoughts don’t desappear anymore.

I’m just a bit attracted to him since he’s kind to me and looks good, that’s why I even thought of something like that. And no, he’s not a creep I’m positive about that. I’ve rejected him once, and he is still my best friend and is kind to me all these years.

Also, thank you for your words. I appreciate it a lot

Most women reject me due to the way I look. Single one that didn’t reject me was horrible to me and wanted me to off someone for her. I was trying to find a girlfriend 17 through 24 years, and only one who genuinely thinks that I’m wonderful is my best friend, who is a guy. Despite what other people say, I’m pretty good at brainwashing myself so I’m positive that I can make myself actually love him.

No, I’m genuinely thinking about it

Well, I don’t have much choice. It’s either this or be lonely my whole life. Also my best friend is hitting on me hardcore, I might just learn how to love him back. But thanks for your input, it is also appreciated

Right… Forgot to think about the last part, thanks for reminding me

Y’all think it would be a good idea to date a guy? Low-key want to be loved, but I’m not gay and not attracted to men 😔 I could act though and get used to get it up my ass idk

Oh yeah I still remember that exact time I told my mother that I’m gonna be a gamer forever. Feels like it happened yesterday. Now I can’t even touch a single game cus they all feel boring and I feel as if I’m choking on stale oxygen if I play any game for longer than 10 minutes a day.